Thailand Bound
I leave for Thailand later today. I am super excited but also super nervous. I can’t wait for the new adventure that lies ahead.
Photo Award #3
I was nominated for the Art Endowment Scholarship and found out this week that I got it! I feel so honored! It was faculty nominated and It’s truly a blessing to know that I’m doing good and that people see my potential. Its so motivating!!
Holding back
I feel uninspired these days but maybe I’m holding back. I have recently trying to work on a new work and I’m one exhausted from whats going on in my personal life but at the same time I think I am using that as an excuse to not make good work. Part of me knows the truth is I’m in a state of mental exhaustion and its taking a toll on my work.
Now, don’t get me wrong I love photography, every time I look at my night series I’m like..wow I did that. I love it, there’s a part of life inside of it a part of me that when I see it I get that spark. But lately I haven’t been able to transition that spark from the photo to me.
My friends talked me into going night shooting which was amazing. I didn’t get what I wanted but it put me back in the grove of things. I’ve let my life and the obstacles of life run me down and this was a good escape it felt good to be out there..just not with friends. I wanted piece and quite!!
I have three photo classes this semester and one I’m working on the Night Images, the other is environmental portraits and I think Im trying to fit my self in somewhere I don’t belong. I think I’m trying to hard to find a conceptual back ground for this project and I’m not focusing on just taking a good photograph.
I started out shooting pinholes with long exposures..from there I realized that the work was about being in a constant state of motion but realizing your leaving things, people, memories behind that are no longer with you. Which has moved me into my next phase, projections and my self. This body of work could go somewhere I just need to push my self. But I’m deeply unhappy about the way the images are transferring out of my head into reality. I can see the scene set up in my head but I can never get it to work out when I’m shooting it. I just can’t get it right and as time is running out with the semester going I feel that I have not been as productive as I’d liked to be.
My Studio class on the other hand I love it. I wanna jump in and just have tons of models to shoot and shoot. I just wish I had the people that wanted to model. I just had one bail this morning :(.
In all I know I have to pull my self together, push my self to explore different realms and really I just wanna shoot and get good photos again. Maybe that’s where I should just start again and go from there.
amazing photographer!!
(Source: tamaralich)
Photo Award #2
Today I got another wonderful award for the SHSU Art Department Juried Show. Juried by Arturo Palacios from Art Palace In Houston, I got a shot out award for one of my night series.
I feel as if I am an artist these days, and I feel like I’m on top of my game. However, I’ve been going and doing so much with out stopping I feel like i’ve lost my inspiration. I love my night series and the last few weeks winning this award, the SAA juried award juried by Matthew Weedman, and being nominated for the Art Endowment has me looking at the work I produced.
I started out hating my night series wasn’t sure what was going to come from it. Now..wow I love it. I love the way the images have come together looking at them reminds me of the excitement I feel when I get the shot.
However, lately I haven’t felt like I’ve had the shot, I feel like Im caught up in the mundane. Now Studio class Im loving it once I get in there and get the shot, i feel the magic flow. So how do I get that back for my night series? Is this a normal thing that happens to artist?
I have three photo classes going on Studio- No concepts, Survival skills my night series and I’m just getting to a new point in environmental. This has defiantly been a ruff semester for me and working on these three projects I’ve kinda had a lot of issues.
So winning those awards makes me appreciate where I was before this semester and makes me wanna try as hard as I can to get back there.
Is art a sufficient consolation for life? Can Beauty make suffering tolerable?
The fact is, I think, that they are only partly sufficient. If we are not too burdened by disappointment or loneliness or pain, there are certainly times when art can help; there are moments when great pictures can heal. Views by Masaccio and Rembrandt and Cézanne and Stieglitz, among others, have all been important to me in this way.
On some occasions, however, Beauty, whether in nature or mirrored in art, can itself be painful. I have walked in the mountains on clear winter afternoons when the landscape I discovered in the camera’s finder was, in its own spectacular independence of us, frightening; I have also come on city tract houses so inhumanly beautiful that they had over them the chill of empty space. It would be misleading not to acknowledge that on certain of these occasions I have had to pack my camera and leave. Sometimes it has been enough to search out a cafe blessed with a jukebox, rattling dishes, and human voices. Family and friends are better though. What a relief there is in an anecdote, a jumping dog, or the brush of a hand. All these things are disorderly, but no plan for survival stands a chance without them.
Its been a while
Its been a while since I’ve blogged about my photography, however that’s because i’ve been so crazy busy, I had a two person show with a classmate name Robert who’s work deals with insomnia and exploration of ridding the mind at night and my work the exploration of a small town.
The show was a huge success but costly, thought I dont regret anything really other than where I printed my post cards. Never use overnight prints..they where horribly done and overpriced.
Since the show I have been helping out with SAA. The student art association. We just recently put on a juried show and guess who got her first official award in an exhibition..ME!! I got an honorable mention at the show juried by Matthew Weedman, I was extremely excited!! It was so unexpected.
I also recently got nominated for the Art Endowment Scholorship. Being recongized is crazy because it means my work is actully start to morph into something wonderful! :) Im all smiles these days and i’ve learned alot in school with photography and SAA.
To keep shooting. Despite financial setbacks, creative slumps or personal hiccups, shooting has always been my answer. Working through all of these things by making photographs has advanced my career. To show clients or curators or art buyers that you are continually making new work for yourself is something that is so important.
—Ryan Pfluger (via lizdevine)
(Source: pdn30.pdnevents.com, via ryanpfluger)
